A gentle reminder

Couple of days ago, my dear friend sms me reminding a phase that I told her years ago when she encountered some personal problem "Always tell yourself that there's someone who is in a situation far worse than you". In the past, every time I encountered problems I remind myself this phase and look forward and tackle problems instead of dwelling over it. However this time, I admit that I really lose it.

Until days ago, during my visit to my boy in NICU ward. I witnessed a Caucasian mummy whom had been very positive about her twin gals since delivered at 28weeks suddenly broke down when her elder twin had fluid detected in her lungs, oxygen level drops to unsafe level that might harm the brain development. Looking at her, my heart goes for her and started to turn teary. Although I don't know the babies in the ward but I can feel that each little baby is striving to live. Each feed, test and cries they made is urging the parents to be strong for them as they are trying their best. I managed to wake up my idea and digest what my friend reminded me. Thanks my dear friend.

A step closer to home

(I'm growing slow and steady... No more tubes from today, so happy... smile..)

Darius managed to downgrade to NICU level 1. We were so glad to see him without tube and manage to finish 36ml of milk at faster speed. Thought his little hands are still bruised with needle hole that pains our heart. Currently he is only on apnea monitoring. We hope that doctor can give green light to bring him home soon.

Darius is learning to suckle

Darius is at his week 35 today, still learning to suckle. Doctor says its normal for 35 weeker to start learning, in fact we are already pushing him to learn from week 34. He was having a bit of jaundice yesterday, hopefully it doesn't increase. Nurse Mary Jane arranged mommy to be in hospital today during feeding time to try latch on and also bottle feed him. Doctor updated that Darius will be downgraded to nicu level 1 tomorrow if everything goes well for his breathing today. :)

While mommy was busy trying out new things with Darius; Daddy was busy at ICA today to register birth cert. Darius chinese name is Lim Kai Zhe.

Do I look like my daddy or mommy?

Today Darius tried a bit on bottle sucking, he tried hard but got tired after a while; the remaining milk goes for tube feed. Had a photo session with darius today, so far we have mixed comments from people around us on look alike.

Darius open his eyes to welcome daddy and mommy

Today baby darius opens his eyes when daddy and mommy visited him. First time for the past week that he opened both his eyes wide open for a period of time before he catches his beauty sleep again.

BB Darius get well soon

BB Darius is one week old today. Seems like it only yesterday that our Darius was born and we are already preparing for BB food. Mommy is working hard making milk for Darius and myself a milk man, delivery milk to the hospital for you.

I know Mommy is sad for the past few days, but with Daddy consoling and Darius BB maturing well everyday. Mommy sadness will be gone soon.

BB Darius, continue to be strong and mature soon. We miss you.

Love Daddy.

Friday and Saturday Visit

Yesterday visited Darius and he slept soundly almost throughout our visit. We didn't want to disturb him hence just quietly talk to him to be a good boy.

21st Sept (Fri)

Mummy carried Darius during our visit today and Darius give us a smile too. He looks sleepy but was giving a few light crank when the other baby disturbed him with loud cries. Everything was happy moment today till late noon when Doctor Toh called Mummy to update that Darius had another episode of Apnea (Skip of breath) during bottle feed after we left; hence he will be back to tube feeds and monitor for couple more days. Doctor Toh consoled that most baby only start to mature at week 34 onwards hence let's give our baby more time. Mummy felt very heartache when she heard this, tears just flows with anxiety, worries and fear. Hope Darius can do better the next time but let's give him sometime.

22nd Sept (Sat)