Surviving Bedrest

Didn't had the mood to update blog last week due to some hiccup news from gynae. Apparently I was observed with some pre-term symptom during the last check. And with the pressure from the baby had head down position, it worsen the situation by shortening the cervical length. Was put on prolong hospitalization leave till a safer period (probably week 35).

We have did a lot of research during this pregnancy for prevention of another premie and did our utmost best to be positive. We were convinced that the last pre-term was due to PROM due to UTI. With research online, i doesn't seems to fit into the bill of any specific category as incompetence cervical (as if it happens its tri 2 or b4 week 24), too "liang", too weak, overstress or what so ever you call.. That's the frustrating part.

I didn't take the not so good news as well as daddy did. Or perhaps its daddy's character to be a cool cucumber even if the heaven is down. Mentally and Physically are a torture during bedrest as all the body aches and headaches starts knocking on my door. Been not able to do much physically, alot of things will start to be wander on my mind.. Should I go KKH or Mt A? High cost if its a premie again, can the family cope with the load with one premie and one toddler? For Darius, our whole family spent a lot of effort and time on him to ensure his back on track like normal baby. Although this make us appreciate his milestone more than normal baby, but we hope once is enough. I really hope god won't make me go through this twice.

Work wise its also affecting me a lot. I don't like to drop all stuff and take emergency leave and leave the mess to my colleagues. Moreover there are some situation in company that I hope I can accompany my colleague who is leaving next month. Fortunately I have a good team lead, manager and colleagues who urge me to rest assure on work stuff.Flower Hamper from Company

Many was asking me "What's the rational of safe period". In KKH terms, a premie baby will not be discharge upon hitting the two criteria which is below 35 weeks or below 2kg. I have just reached 2kg target from last week checkup and aiming the min 35 weeks dateline with aid of bedrest. Everyday is a blessing for us after next week. Looking back, probably its a blessing to discover there were risk involve from week 31 which keep me in bed till now and further, otherwise we might go into another repeated history. Keeping finger cross and hoping the best.
Blessing needed..